1. |
half gone
04:47
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when I look back,
then everything looks bright compared to now
and for some time,
I've felt like something's been drained from me
it kind of feels,
like there's a crack within
that splits my heart
and I cannot feel,
those feelings anymore
with half a heart
I wish I could
be stronger when you need me to be
I wish I was
as solid as a rock, dependable
but I'm drifting off, you see it in my eyes
that mile-long stare
and it's not the same,
I'm right here by your side
yet still so far
somewhere else, far away from here I am now
far away, far away from here I am now
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2. |
isolation
05:18
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can't feel a thing
losing it all
I can't move,
just flickering my eyes
I'm staring
until my eyes fall out
I thought I'd be okay by now
I'm clearly not
I disappoint myself again
what else is new?
I don't even want to sing
I don't even want to play
I don't feel like anything no more
please don't talk to me
I can't stand people
can't me bothered right now
won't you please leave me be?
I thought it would get easier
it clearly won't
it's only complicating things
what did I expect?
I think I'm reach to a point
where I can't feel anything
I don't want no part in it no more
losing it all
can't feel a thing anymore
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3. |
everything's a waste
04:23
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what does
it all come
down to
in the end?
and I always discredit whatever I'm writing
can I never feel good about
something that these hands have made?
it just seems
so pointless
and no one
should hear this
there are millions better than me
I'm just fumbling around on these strings
all I'm doing is taking up space
all I'm doing is useless
I shouldn't take up your time
with all of my whining
I don't deserve the attention
I shouldn't waste your time
I will always devalue whatever I'm writing
I'll never feel good about
something that these hands have made
I don't contribution to anything
of real value, this is a waste
I am only taking up space
I am only a waste of your time
a waste our time
wasting our time
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4. |
i'm not there
05:58
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you walk so fast, I can't keep up with you
always behind, so typical of me
I take more time to process everything
my head's in the blue and always a clouded mind
always kept telling myself
"I'll be fine"
you don't have to worry about me,
I'll survive
I feel so stressed when nothing's going on
the slightest thing keeps bugging me for days
I take too long to process everything
my head's a mess and my mind is somewhere else
always kept telling myself
"I'll be fine"
you don't have to worry about me,
I'll survive
lost in my own thoughts
keeping them all to myself
keeping it all to myself
always so stuck in my mind, I
'll be fine
absent mind and head in the blue
but I'll survive
nostalgia and regrets
that's all there is to me
disappointments and pain
that's all there is for me
nostalgic and absent
that's all I'll ever be
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5. |
act alive
01:20
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I'm sure I'll overcome this
just been preoccupied lately
you'll see I'll do much better
in a week's time or so
it's just some phase I go through
I'm sure it's passing soon, soon
you'll see I'll feel much better
and I'll act alive again
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6. |
a void in life
04:34
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it keeps on losing
color and texture
it's disappearing
whatever filled it from the start
it's not as easy
as you portrayed it
whatever purpose
is slowly running out of me
where is my life going?
time slips out of my hands
losing all that I held onto
why do I keep losing all that I held onto?
why do I keep losing all that I held onto?
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7. |
thought patterns
04:16
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how could you expect to fall asleep
after what was said?
and I wish I could take back and make it undone
how could you expect me to sleep
after what was said?
all of those words still ring inside my head
"you never say what's on your mind"
"you don't admit that something's wrong"
it's just so hard for me
to try and break that chain
how did I expect to be fine
after what I said to myself?
those words keep circling my head
"you never do anything right"
"all that you hold ends up breaking"
those words keep haunting me
and push me further down
it's always hard for me to see
what's really on my mind these days
it's all so far from me, it seems
that I am miles away from you and me
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8. |
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I never know what's eating away
inside my head, it's always a mess
I started thinking something's wrong
(so wrong)
when I heard what I just said
I thought I was doing fine
(oh no)
didn't notice at the time
then I come crashing,
then I come crashing down
just like an airplane
falling out of the sky - down
"hey now, settle down"
oh, how I wish I could
and it seems like nothing goes my way
and I'm filled with negativity
and I beat myself up
any way that I can
I can never see in time
(never)
what you have seen for days
keep telling myself it's fine
(oh no)
and ignoring all the signs
it's not supposed to,
supposed to be this hard
to realize that
you can't keep pushing this - down
deep down, in my heart
I've always known this
it's so hard to change the way I've thought
for years, for almost half my life
only beat myself up
and put myself down
the years go by but I just stay the same
I try so hard but I can't see a change
can never tell why I feel this way
so disconnected and far away
inside my head
I'm full of doubt
I never know what's eating away
inside my head, it's always a mess
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9. |
everyone disappoints
03:24
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you just turn your head
it doesn't bother you
so you just look the other way
as long as it doesn't touch you
you won't say a word
you just won't care at all
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10. |
tilda
02:31
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where are you now? we miss you so much
and wish that you'd come back
suddenly our apartment seems so,
so empty and so big
everything here reminds us of you
but you are somewhere else
wish I could stroke your ears one last time
before they out you down
please come back home
we miss you so
oh, tilda please come back home
oh, tilda we miss you so
oh, tilda we loved you so
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11. |
the hurt you do
05:20
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it's not like I'm all that surprised
I guess I'm just disappointed
already said more than you'd like
already said more than you can take
go - if you think it would
change - this tension just won't
go away - nothing I'll say would
change - perspectives for you
I haven't said a thing,
still it feels like I have
already said more,
more than you wanna hear
from me
it's not like you don't know
you don't have to pretend
it's not like you don't know
you know what you have done
to me and everyone else
but you won't hear it
it's not like I'm all that surprised
I guess I'm just disappointed in you
go -
change -
go away - no words I say could
change - your viewpoint
already said all I can say
I can't make you see
how your actions and words
are hurting us
just go away from here
leave us alone for now
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12. |
clouded
04:45
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I never wanted it like this
I'm always ending up
keeping it bottled up inside
although it's not that good
don't know why I find it so hard
to open up my mouth
wish I could talk without being scared
of what comes out
sometimes I can't find the words to explain
or I just don't know what I feel right now?
my mind's a mess
I can't think straight
wish I didn't bother you
with the things I'm going through
such a storm here
I can't make a thing out
of what you're saying
I'm so far away
something's I can't see where I'm heading to
or I just don't want to realize?
I'm such a mess
I can't calm down
I'm not making any sense
and my mind is made of clay
now all my words seemed to disappeared
and left me hollow, floating out of here
so where have I gone now?
and how can I call down?
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13. |
no words left
02:30
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you tore down all of my walls
and now I'm scared that all will break apart
please tell me all will work out fine
but I don't know what fine is anymore
and the tears come rolling down
when I say what you already know
and the tears come rolling down
when you stop talking and just sit and stare
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14. |
nothing was ever fine
04:53
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don't say I'm the same
like nothing has changed
when everything has
you want to pretend
like nothing is wrong
like everything's fine
but I can't relate to everyone that
still acts the same
I can't understand how you all so cold
choose not to care
don't say I'm the same
like nothing has changed
when everything has
I can't stand to think that I am still there
that I never changed
you don't want to hear that all you hold dear
means nothing at all
you just want to go on like everything's fine
when it never was
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